Final Preparations

I feel like a man who's going to the gallows and nobody wants to tell him. The hearing is spectacle, part of the punishment. Can't they just be honest about what's going on? This is inhumane.

I had a final meeting with my lawyer today before we appear in court on Monday, going over what I need to do and what's going to happen. I think I'm getting to her. All that bullshit optimism seems to be wearing thin. I tried to talk to her honestly about what's going on, but I don't think she speaks that language. I don't know anybody else who would understand what's going on. Maybe The lawyer for the other side.

Right before I left she told me to relax. Now I have the entire weekend to think about what's gonna go wrong.